On Growth 💚

It’s been almost one year since I left my previous full time role. That’s a different story for another day. But what’s important is the recognition of time and a transitionary period of my life. I’ve had a year of challenging myself to pursue my visions and dreams. 

Being a “dj” is a mixture of both being shamelessly yourself and also being in service to the dancers and partygoers. I’ve learned that, as in any other artistic or creative endeavors, the more authentic you are, the further your work will reach and resonate. The issue for me is that I’ve lived many years feeling like I’ve had to hide or be ashamed of many parts of myself. This year, has been about slowly and surely embracing all the things that I’ve kept tucked away and recognizing them as my strengths rather than weaknesses. It can be especially confusing when so much of this world is against the natural ways in which we want to express ourselves. I could wax on about THAT. But I am feeling more and more confident in my pursuit of self acceptance and expression.

I do this not alone but in collaborating with so many insanely talented people. I’ve always loved working in teams and am always reminded how important it is to respect and learn from others. As the “DJ”, I never make the mistake of thinking any party, event, or production is successful solely from my performance. It is always a team effort and forming stronger relationships with people in various roles across venues and spaces has been one of the highlights of this year for me. 

I’ve been having several conversations with different friends and noticing we all seem to be in a similar place right now. Finding ourselves creating some of our best works yet, but, also feeling the crushing weight and darkness of the world. I look in their eyes and see a relatable anxiety but also a familiar fire. We are learning to trust our soul purpose. Not to get too ~woo woo~ but I think that’s some of the bravest work we can do for ourselves. Trusting and believing in yourself is no small journey and celebrating our small, big, individual and collective wins is important. I am so inspired by my peers, friends, and random people I follow on this World Wide Web every day. It’s been a year of me “putting myself out there more” trusting my ideas and executing my vision at a pace uniquely my own. I am so excited to see what another year will bring but we all know the answer - MORE and MORE GROWTH! <3

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“I can't be a singular expression of myself

There's too many parts, too many spaces

Too many manifestations, too many lines

Too many curves, too many troubles

Too many journeys, too many mountains

Too many rivers, so many” - Solange